Let me take this time to
Ask you, inform you
Of all the things you did not know
I'm sorry
I can't be the cure for your life
You were always by my side
Life spent without rain
You will always be the heart in me
You will always be
The past the love the memories
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Sunday, August 22, 2010
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
It's going to be close to a year now. My life has changed eversince. You've made a huge impact in my life, no doubt in that. You've raised me up eversince i was a child. I can still remember how i'm always being pampered and sheltered by you. Instead of getting the punishment that I deserved, you were always there to take me in, and protect me. I've always been running away from everything, and you were there. Always there to confide me.
I miss you so much. Why did you have to go?
I guess, everything happens for a reason. You were suffering, I can tell. And I know that you felt like you were a burden to everyone. I love you so much, we all do. And eventhough my actions do not show, you know that I do. I was dependent on you, I needed you. You were always there for me.
I miss those times listening to your ghost stories.
I miss those times where you'd stand at the corridor, seeing me off to school.
I miss your cooking.
I miss your old-fashioned and superstitious theories.
I miss the times where you'd put a blanket over me when I was feeling cold.
I miss the way you smile at me eventhough when things were going bad.
I know you're in a better place now. Your memories will always stay in my heart. Forever and always. And no one can replace you,
no one can ever fill that emptiness in my heart.
Thank you for everything.
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to Heaven
And bring you home again.
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Friday, November 6, 2009
what's love?
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
Can we climb this mountain
I dont know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let's take it easy
Easy now
Watch it go
We're burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane
That started turning
When you were young,
When you were young
And sometimes you close your eyes
And see the place where you used to live
When you were young
They say the devil's water
It ain't so sweet
You dont have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
I said he doesnt look a thing like Jesus
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But more than you'll ever know
<3
one step at a time :)
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Sunday, November 1, 2009
what's my offense this time?
To You:
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend,
I helped you out, was there for you. But this is what I get in return.
I tried to open up, tried everything I could but you pushed me away.
It hurts alot.
Somehow feelings grew but you had another.
Instead you chose another. But what harm is there in just being friends?
Feelings of jealousy were easily shaken off. Recovered.
But wait, No.
And then it was the second time. Again, it hurts.
You'd rather find comfort in them. But you told me different things, didn't you?
What are you, a hypocrite?
What's with the feeling of uncertainty then?
I suggest, stop pretending!
We're not even close to friends.
Just classmates. A formal status.
So don't you dare say you'll be there, don't you dare call me a friend
with regards to all your ignorance and your empty promises.
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend.
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Thursday, October 22, 2009
impromptu
Good morning world, the earth says hello :) It's 5++am now and i'm wide awake. Suddenly I have the urge to post something. Hahah. Just a quickie yea?
No matter how hard others try to put me down and make my life miserable, I'll never give up on life. Instead, i'll take it as a lesson. Humans are just humans you see. It's fun for them to toy with others' feelings because to them it's like an entertainment. I am not a dancing marionette, thank you verymuch :D and i won't let your shitty actions affect my life.
Anywayyyy school has been uber-awesome. Post-promo activities totally kick ass. :) I'll update more about this later. Today and tmr are just normal lessons. Monday's a holiday because its teh promotional exercise :S i'm scared. Will I be able to get promoted to year 2? *sigh* I hope. Insyaallah. Tuesday, getting all the scripts back. And on the 31st(HALLOWEEEEEEN.lol) getting back our results slip. OMGEEEZ. I'm kinda excited(wth) but absolutely nervous, so nervous that i'll pee in my panties. LOL.
Oh well, I wish my beloved class all the best. :) I love you 09A3. (hehe so mushy) My class is so the bonding2. I really hope we won't be separated next year. Pwetty prease?
So last night i heard there'd be a shooting stars? I was too tired and sleepy to stay up at 1am. Besides, i'm living in the west. WE CANNOT SEE SHOOTING STARS HERE. Damn you east siders! Haha. I'm telling ya, when i'm older i'll be living in the east side. It's much more peaceful there and the air is fresher. The west side is full of factories and smoke *coughcough*
The people in the east side are pretty laid back. Dontcha agree? hehe. Must find boyfriend there. Hahaha k nonsense.
HOLIDAYS ARE COMING SOON. I wanna do lots of things + studying! :P Yah no life right? Screw you :) Yes you. *points at the reader* Haha.
OH AND SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON TOOOO! *wiggles eyebrow* hehehe.
Like finally 17. It's so unfair cause most of my friends are like already 17 and gonna turn 18 in few months time. AND ME? Still 16. Pretty pathetic. :( And still, cannot watch all the M18 movies. Dammit.
I love children :D (not in a sicko way....but in a motherly way. chey!) Last night right, my mom forced me to eat dinner at IMM banquet. While waiting for my parents to buy the food i was dozing off on the table. hahaha. Lazyswine. But seriously i was damn tired from the day's activity. Visit OCS and all. I think my eyes were tired from looking at alot of cuties there. HAHA. tsktsk. Oh yea you must be wondering what does all this nonsense i just typed have to do w/ children right? Aha, wait. Lol. So yea when my mommy woke me up she said to me, Eh never layan your members over there? Then i was like heh? *sleepy confused face*. She points to the kids towards my right. And i was like uhh. too tired la. Haha. I looked at them and then there was this little boy around 3 years old, looked at me. So i just smiled at him and then he was like acting coy. Smilesmile all that. HAHAHA OMG SO CUTE BUT CHEEKY la. See, this proves that boys are all GATAL(cheeky) since young. xP then I started to stick out my tongue at him and all that.I know im childish,sorry. Haha. Then mommy said, Ah see. Layan jugak. Hehehehe. So cuteeee la. The adik more cuter. So fat then he was like running around the place. Ah little kids make me happy. :) Can't wait to have my own. LOL. And i'm only 16. *sulks* Oh and i realised that my posts are always very random and i don't stick to one topic? hahah. Sorry babies, that's just me.
Okay enough baby talk. It's nearly 6. Gotta go bathe. hahaha. Ew yes i know :)
TOODLE NOODLES! <3
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
I hate buffering
Sometimes I wonder why people are just plain dumb.
And I think my brain is malfunctioning. Lol. And I no longer have emotions (heh?) *shrugs*
Anyway, since exams are over and I'm seriously bored as hell, I think i'm gonna start reading Taming Of the Shrew and research about the Elizabethan era. Gonna get a head start in things. It's better than wasting my time on stupid guys or losers who have no life at all, right? *nods*
Oh and I have yet to finish reading Tess. Two more phases and i'm done. I must say I've watched the movie versions and they're so much interesting. (duh) But obviously the book is more detailed (eventhough its dry).
So my plan for this week is to start reading my lit texts and study mob. Since my teacher is starting on a new topic next week, might as well start reading the chapter eh. :D
What about geography? Hmmm. Think i'll put that aside for now. LOL. Geez, if any geog teachers were to read this, they'd be sad. I can't help it. It's my least favourtie subject for now :P
Anywho i'm pretty excited for the coming holidays. Hehehe. I like performing. I mean i'm not bragging neither am i saying that I have a nice singing voice but, I just love singing. Yes, since I was a little girl. And no, i don't attend any vocal trainings so quit asking me.
And i want to write songs with yusri. It's like a side project uh. :D And going to cover some songs with some friends. And going to be in a band. I hope these people are pretty serious in forming a band. Because, i don't like people who just form a band cause it's like "teh coolest thing everr". Or just for fun? And then in the end, habuk pun takde. Ala okay la the latter is fine though. Heh. But not the former.
I think flirting is fine. But we should always set limits. I mean lets say if you're already attached and you think it's fun to flirt with other people then at least set a borderline luh.
And I hate it when people lie. I hate it more when people are being unfaithful. Seriously, they should just go and fly kite la k.
Sometimes I think i'm too nice and too naive. And I fall for people easily. But! I also fall out of that "liking" phase easily. Which is a good thing.
However if i fall in love, well that's a total different thing. Infact i've only been in love once in my whole entire life. And when it ended, I fell down hard. Took me awhile to get over him. Infact I'm still unsure whether i've moved on. I think I have but the memories still lingers on.
Oh yes I also think that the phrase "I love you" is meaningless nowadays. It's repetitive and vague. Because by uttering merely those words, it's not enough. Actions speak louder than words. Totally.
And I think marriage is getting more and more meaningless because the main idea of marriage is being diminished by society. It's merely just a status now if you ask me. Human in this era are being more selfish, self centered, materialistic and irresponsible. Why get married then if you know that 5 years down the road, you'll get a divorce? Who will suffer in the end? No, not the parents. But the children. And what if history repeats itself in the next generation? It becomes a vicious cycle. I see that alot nowadays. So in other words, don't get married if you're an irresponsible, materialistic self-centered bitch/fag.
We're living in repetition, content in the same old shtick again.
Now the routine's turning to contention,
like a production line going over and over and over, roller coaster.
-Green Day
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009
here we go again
Wanted to post about alot of happy stuff(s) but the misery consumes me still. What scares me the most is that, I've lost my ability to cry. Is that even possible?! Sounds stupid, I know. But it frustrates me. I want to let it all out but I just can't anymore. I guess i'm just immune to it all to the extent that crying doesn't give me comfort anymore.
Sometimes i just feel like running away from it all
and just find some place to hide, away from all the pain.
Away from everyone and every single living thing on earth
in the darkness and in silence.
Alone.
As much as i want comfort from them, i know they'd never understand what i'm going through.
Words can bring comfort but it's only short-lived.
The problem stays. The pain would never fade.
I'm not the kind of person who would just take things easily and let it off my shoulders just like that. No I am not. I'm the kind of person who'd sit down, ponder about it for a moment and reflect on it.
Sometimes I wish I'd just disappear into thin air.
like *poof*
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Saturday, September 5, 2009
the cruelty of lust and the fragility of love
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do
I can never let them go.
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Sunday, August 22, 2010
took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
It's going to be close to a year now. My life has changed eversince. You've made a huge impact in my life, no doubt in that. You've raised me up eversince i was a child. I can still remember how i'm always being pampered and sheltered by you. Instead of getting the punishment that I deserved, you were always there to take me in, and protect me. I've always been running away from everything, and you were there. Always there to confide me.
I miss you so much. Why did you have to go?
I guess, everything happens for a reason. You were suffering, I can tell. And I know that you felt like you were a burden to everyone. I love you so much, we all do. And eventhough my actions do not show, you know that I do. I was dependent on you, I needed you. You were always there for me.
I miss those times listening to your ghost stories.
I miss those times where you'd stand at the corridor, seeing me off to school.
I miss your cooking.
I miss your old-fashioned and superstitious theories.
I miss the times where you'd put a blanket over me when I was feeling cold.
I miss the way you smile at me eventhough when things were going bad.
I know you're in a better place now. Your memories will always stay in my heart. Forever and always. And no one can replace you,
no one can ever fill that emptiness in my heart.
Thank you for everything.
If tears could build a stairway,
And memories a lane,
I'd walk right up to Heaven
And bring you home again.
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Friday, November 6, 2009
what's love?
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
Can we climb this mountain
I dont know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let's take it easy
Easy now
Watch it go
We're burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane
That started turning
When you were young,
When you were young
And sometimes you close your eyes
And see the place where you used to live
When you were young
They say the devil's water
It ain't so sweet
You dont have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while
You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
I said he doesnt look a thing like Jesus
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But more than you'll ever know
<3
one step at a time :)
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Sunday, November 1, 2009
what's my offense this time?
To You:
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend,
I helped you out, was there for you. But this is what I get in return.
I tried to open up, tried everything I could but you pushed me away.
It hurts alot.
Somehow feelings grew but you had another.
Instead you chose another. But what harm is there in just being friends?
Feelings of jealousy were easily shaken off. Recovered.
But wait, No.
And then it was the second time. Again, it hurts.
You'd rather find comfort in them. But you told me different things, didn't you?
What are you, a hypocrite?
What's with the feeling of uncertainty then?
I suggest, stop pretending!
We're not even close to friends.
Just classmates. A formal status.
So don't you dare say you'll be there, don't you dare call me a friend
with regards to all your ignorance and your empty promises.
Well you treat me just like another stranger
Well it's nice to meet you sir
I guess I'll go
I best be on my way out
Ignorance is your new best friend.
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Thursday, October 22, 2009
impromptu
Good morning world, the earth says hello :) It's 5++am now and i'm wide awake. Suddenly I have the urge to post something. Hahah. Just a quickie yea?
No matter how hard others try to put me down and make my life miserable, I'll never give up on life. Instead, i'll take it as a lesson. Humans are just humans you see. It's fun for them to toy with others' feelings because to them it's like an entertainment. I am not a dancing marionette, thank you verymuch :D and i won't let your shitty actions affect my life.
Anywayyyy school has been uber-awesome. Post-promo activities totally kick ass. :) I'll update more about this later. Today and tmr are just normal lessons. Monday's a holiday because its teh promotional exercise :S i'm scared. Will I be able to get promoted to year 2? *sigh* I hope. Insyaallah. Tuesday, getting all the scripts back. And on the 31st(HALLOWEEEEEEN.lol) getting back our results slip. OMGEEEZ. I'm kinda excited(wth) but absolutely nervous, so nervous that i'll pee in my panties. LOL.
Oh well, I wish my beloved class all the best. :) I love you 09A3. (hehe so mushy) My class is so the bonding2. I really hope we won't be separated next year. Pwetty prease?
So last night i heard there'd be a shooting stars? I was too tired and sleepy to stay up at 1am. Besides, i'm living in the west. WE CANNOT SEE SHOOTING STARS HERE. Damn you east siders! Haha. I'm telling ya, when i'm older i'll be living in the east side. It's much more peaceful there and the air is fresher. The west side is full of factories and smoke *coughcough*
The people in the east side are pretty laid back. Dontcha agree? hehe. Must find boyfriend there. Hahaha k nonsense.
HOLIDAYS ARE COMING SOON. I wanna do lots of things + studying! :P Yah no life right? Screw you :) Yes you. *points at the reader* Haha.
OH AND SOMEONE'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON TOOOO! *wiggles eyebrow* hehehe.
Like finally 17. It's so unfair cause most of my friends are like already 17 and gonna turn 18 in few months time. AND ME? Still 16. Pretty pathetic. :( And still, cannot watch all the M18 movies. Dammit.
I love children :D (not in a sicko way....but in a motherly way. chey!) Last night right, my mom forced me to eat dinner at IMM banquet. While waiting for my parents to buy the food i was dozing off on the table. hahaha. Lazyswine. But seriously i was damn tired from the day's activity. Visit OCS and all. I think my eyes were tired from looking at alot of cuties there. HAHA. tsktsk. Oh yea you must be wondering what does all this nonsense i just typed have to do w/ children right? Aha, wait. Lol. So yea when my mommy woke me up she said to me, Eh never layan your members over there? Then i was like heh? *sleepy confused face*. She points to the kids towards my right. And i was like uhh. too tired la. Haha. I looked at them and then there was this little boy around 3 years old, looked at me. So i just smiled at him and then he was like acting coy. Smilesmile all that. HAHAHA OMG SO CUTE BUT CHEEKY la. See, this proves that boys are all GATAL(cheeky) since young. xP then I started to stick out my tongue at him and all that.I know im childish,sorry. Haha. Then mommy said, Ah see. Layan jugak. Hehehehe. So cuteeee la. The adik more cuter. So fat then he was like running around the place. Ah little kids make me happy. :) Can't wait to have my own. LOL. And i'm only 16. *sulks* Oh and i realised that my posts are always very random and i don't stick to one topic? hahah. Sorry babies, that's just me.
Okay enough baby talk. It's nearly 6. Gotta go bathe. hahaha. Ew yes i know :)
TOODLE NOODLES! <3
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
I hate buffering
Sometimes I wonder why people are just plain dumb.
And I think my brain is malfunctioning. Lol. And I no longer have emotions (heh?) *shrugs*
Anyway, since exams are over and I'm seriously bored as hell, I think i'm gonna start reading Taming Of the Shrew and research about the Elizabethan era. Gonna get a head start in things. It's better than wasting my time on stupid guys or losers who have no life at all, right? *nods*
Oh and I have yet to finish reading Tess. Two more phases and i'm done. I must say I've watched the movie versions and they're so much interesting. (duh) But obviously the book is more detailed (eventhough its dry).
So my plan for this week is to start reading my lit texts and study mob. Since my teacher is starting on a new topic next week, might as well start reading the chapter eh. :D
What about geography? Hmmm. Think i'll put that aside for now. LOL. Geez, if any geog teachers were to read this, they'd be sad. I can't help it. It's my least favourtie subject for now :P
Anywho i'm pretty excited for the coming holidays. Hehehe. I like performing. I mean i'm not bragging neither am i saying that I have a nice singing voice but, I just love singing. Yes, since I was a little girl. And no, i don't attend any vocal trainings so quit asking me.
And i want to write songs with yusri. It's like a side project uh. :D And going to cover some songs with some friends. And going to be in a band. I hope these people are pretty serious in forming a band. Because, i don't like people who just form a band cause it's like "teh coolest thing everr". Or just for fun? And then in the end, habuk pun takde. Ala okay la the latter is fine though. Heh. But not the former.
I think flirting is fine. But we should always set limits. I mean lets say if you're already attached and you think it's fun to flirt with other people then at least set a borderline luh.
And I hate it when people lie. I hate it more when people are being unfaithful. Seriously, they should just go and fly kite la k.
Sometimes I think i'm too nice and too naive. And I fall for people easily. But! I also fall out of that "liking" phase easily. Which is a good thing.
However if i fall in love, well that's a total different thing. Infact i've only been in love once in my whole entire life. And when it ended, I fell down hard. Took me awhile to get over him. Infact I'm still unsure whether i've moved on. I think I have but the memories still lingers on.
Oh yes I also think that the phrase "I love you" is meaningless nowadays. It's repetitive and vague. Because by uttering merely those words, it's not enough. Actions speak louder than words. Totally.
And I think marriage is getting more and more meaningless because the main idea of marriage is being diminished by society. It's merely just a status now if you ask me. Human in this era are being more selfish, self centered, materialistic and irresponsible. Why get married then if you know that 5 years down the road, you'll get a divorce? Who will suffer in the end? No, not the parents. But the children. And what if history repeats itself in the next generation? It becomes a vicious cycle. I see that alot nowadays. So in other words, don't get married if you're an irresponsible, materialistic self-centered bitch/fag.
We're living in repetition, content in the same old shtick again.
Now the routine's turning to contention,
like a production line going over and over and over, roller coaster.
-Green Day
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Wednesday, October 14, 2009
here we go again
Wanted to post about alot of happy stuff(s) but the misery consumes me still. What scares me the most is that, I've lost my ability to cry. Is that even possible?! Sounds stupid, I know. But it frustrates me. I want to let it all out but I just can't anymore. I guess i'm just immune to it all to the extent that crying doesn't give me comfort anymore.
Sometimes i just feel like running away from it all
and just find some place to hide, away from all the pain.
Away from everyone and every single living thing on earth
in the darkness and in silence.
Alone.
As much as i want comfort from them, i know they'd never understand what i'm going through.
Words can bring comfort but it's only short-lived.
The problem stays. The pain would never fade.
I'm not the kind of person who would just take things easily and let it off my shoulders just like that. No I am not. I'm the kind of person who'd sit down, ponder about it for a moment and reflect on it.
Sometimes I wish I'd just disappear into thin air.
like *poof*
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Saturday, September 5, 2009
the cruelty of lust and the fragility of love
Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you
So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do
I can never let them go.
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Adawiyah Roslee
7teen
29 October 1992
I am a person who is passionate,a person who is determined.
I love to read,
I love and appreciate music.
I love to love.
Late dawns and early sunsets, just like my favorite scenes
I love to look at the sky, be it day or night.
The stars amazes me somehow...
I believe that true love exists.
and I don't care what others say
I may be young and naive but that doesn't mean i'm clueless about love
because you don't have to be old and grey to be wise.
I'd love to live in a small cottage house by a creek,in a small little town.
I love biology because the more I learn, the more i appreciate god's creation.
Science can be amazing but sometimes, not everything can be proven "scientifically"
because I know that there is so much more to this.
Miracles do happen
dream yourself a dream come true
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